xoNat
don't worry, be happy
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I think every time I got to this point during the hsc I kind of told myself that doing something is at the very least better than doing nothing. It's much better to slow down than stop completely. At that point I would be watching revision videos of early content or doing like 3 questions at a time. Take some time to focus on the things that you want to do, especially doing physical activity it helps so much. iirc school is basically starting now so just take the first maybe two afternoons of this week to have some free time - try not to think about studying at all. Then you can go back to trials study with the goal of just improving anything you can. If you really can't get any study out literally just go outside.like really, ive been losing sight of it all
i cant bring myself to study at all because this stress isn't real, it ends
everyday im told that this shit is so difficult, yet the same people say to not stress because everyone ends up in the same place. i get that its supposed to be reassuring to those who don't do well, but all that means for me is that the effort i put in is just useless
i cant see the purpose in being stressed about a number, i can see the purpose in being stressed about other things that actually contribute to fulfillment in life, but i got none of that. for nearly 6 years i just threw everything away for academics and got nothing out of it.
i can write essays, code websites, do well on exams, compress content and battle with deadlines.
but i barely got friends, can't see them anyway cuz i go out like once a month max, got no hobbies, no style, barely exercise, can't cook, street retarded, uncultured, integrityless, the list goes on
first place is a prison anyway.
what do i do?
Also you mentioned that you wanna do software eng with a requirement of 92+ so I assume you're talking about UNSW. If so, I highly recommend checking out UNSW's portfolio entry scheme, the adjusted ATAR would be 85. Round 1 is just about to close but you can also apply for round 2.

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On a side note you have so much time to figure out the kind of person you want to be and what you want to pursue in life. Just because y12 is so busy with the study grind don't lose sight of the bigger picture, I remember writing this really long list of all the things I wanted to do in the break between end of HSC and uni and I'm still working through it now.